June 2, 2008

  • Dillo Day

    Dillo Day is an all-day concert ordeal at Northwestern and usually involves a lot of drinking.  My day was completely alcohol-free (Yay for me?).  Haha.  Yeah, it was a great day, in large part due to the weather.  It's amazing how significantly the weather affects everyone's mood here.  Third Eye Blind was very disappointing live...maybe they were just having an off day.  I've loved them for so long and to see them in a crappy performance like that was a little disheartening.  Common, on the other hand, was so hot and sexy live.  I mean his rapping was, of course =D.  I like =).

    My life has become very unproductive and boring and un-insightful.  Things that captured me before no longer do so.  I've stopped trying to chime in on conversations with something smart and witty and have resorted to letting other people do most of the talking and just giving the standard prepared answers.  I've become complacent with sitting back and letting others do the talking (and thinking)...so when it comes time to actually say something, I feel dumb and bland and uninformed and 1D and not the same person I used to be.  I find myself just wanting to go home all the time so I can sit in front of the TV with Sean, or hear my mom ramble on, or just do nothing.  This is probably not completely true, but just what I'm feeling right now.

    I miss having more structure to my life.  Before, my life was planned around classes.  Now that I don't have any to set my schedule, I've been having trouble disciplining myself...thus rendering me useless.  haha. sad, but true.  I think the hardest part of grad school is getting yourself to do the work, not the actual work itself.  I'm not exactly sure that you'd find all grad students agreeing to this, because, for the most part, it seems that everyone else is always working and doing research and getting "results"...whatever that means. 

    I hope I really don't turn out to be that person who always needs something new and exciting to keep me interested.  Maybe grad school is the test for me and sticking to this same old research thing for 4+ years actually will be my greatest feat yet. 

    Also...it's gonna be so painful when I have a baby!  How do mothers do it?  How did my mom have 3 of us?!  Ahhhh!  Well, I guess it won't be for a long while, but I'm still scared already!  Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

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